“I am in love with a boy manufactured to destroy…”

So much has happened since my last post:

1. My recital is done and it’s over with… and I’m so relieved!!!

2. I’m no longer an RA…that’s also relieving.

3. I’m engaged!!!

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“Whether you’re high or low, you got to tip on the tightrope” – Janelle Monae

I had a bit of a scare this weekend…

I woke up Friday morning, like normal, went to work, like normal, turned on my laptop to watch Thursday’s episode of Grey’s, like normal…but wait, my computer screen was acting wonky! I thought I was going to have to replace my laptop screen. But after not using it for the weekend, it appears to be okay (“knock on wood”). So, as long as I don’t get rough with how I handle my laptop, we’re good!

As of right now, I’m sitting in my Intro to Info Tech class, and let’s just say that it’s not worth waking up at 6:45am to catch a 7:30 shuttle for an 8am class. I’m just going to be honest…this class sucks. The plans for the rest of the day: two more classes, work out at the rec center, Double Reed Recital. What makes me nervous is the recital tonight (performing in general makes me nervous), therefore I’m going to the recreational center to de-stress and make me relaxed. I should consider finding a banana too…

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“Motivation, such an aggravation” – Sum 41 (Prepare for a ramble)

I think the sense of self-motivation was never instilled in me….isn’t that weird to think? Someone is supposed to teach you how to motivate yourself. I guess that would be considered as ironic….or just the way it is.

I’m at the point where the thought of performing well (in case you didn’t know, I’m a music major) doesn’t motivate me. It’s almost as if that really isn’t an option as much as it is the luck of the draw for me. Performing well (as well as just wanting to make yourself better) is supposed to motivate me to practice, but for some reason, those variables aren’t creating the right equation. Instead, I’ve psyched myself out of practicing, because it feels like no matter how hard I practice, the results don’t show it. Well, it doesn’t get any better when I don’t either.

And did I mention that I hate performing by myself? Well, I do. I barely do well with public speaking…

 

So…let’s get to the root of problem: my recital. More importantly, my up-coming recital jury, which pretty much decides whether or not if I get to have a recital. I’m not ready. That’s pretty much it. And I don’t have the motivation to kick it into gear…and it’s pass due to start kicking it into gear. I feel like I’m trying to sabotage myself…

Ugh…I’m going to do some math homework to make myself feel better :/

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Lady in Spain

I feel like it’s necessary to post the lyrics to the song that this blog is named for 🙂 Plus, you get a little video too!

LADY IN SPAIN – INGRID MICHAELSON

I am the lady in Spain
I’ll sing a haunting refrain
I am the lady from Mars
And I can unscrew the stars
I can be
Anything I see
I can be
Anything that I, anything that I see

And I am in love with a boy
Manufacture to destroy
I shall unravel my love
I can unthread woolen gloves
I can do anything I want to
I can do anything I want anything my heart tells me to do
Tells me to do
Tells me to do
Dododo-dodododo-dododododo

I can do-ooo-ooo
Anything I want to
I can be-ee-eeee
Anything that I see
I can do-oooo-ooooooo anything I want to
I can be anything that I see
Anything that I see

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Hello World, indeed!

This is my first real blog…assuming that people don’t include Xanga or Livejournal. So let’s just say that this is my first blog that doesn’t include teen angst! That sounds pretty good to me.

Here’s some background information on me:

1. My name is Rickeya and I’m currently a student at Columbus State University (we’ll get into my major later on). As of right now, I’m a resident assistant in the one of the dorms as well as a student assistant in one of the housing offices.

2. I’m originally from Indiana, but I’ve been living in Georgia for over 10 years ( I still don’t consider myself to be southern, and never will).

3.  I’m an avid Buffy the Vampire Slayer fan (the tv show, not the movie)!

That’s just some basic things. I’ll explain more about myself in due time.

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